Hola

I'm back....,
because I wanna tell y'all how I feel right now.
just so you know.
I'm bloated....., my face is turning to a ball.

I don't know why I'm eating alot recently-
although I'm not hungry.
I just stuff them into my mouth.
I eat until I was about to burst..
I feel guilty in the end..., and wanna puke them out.

so I trudged into my toilet...,
used my toothbrush- insert them into my throat ;
and wish all the swallowed food comes out.
but guess what-
at the very moment ;
I asked myself what am I doing.
why did I do all this.
I put away the toothbrush ;
stood up and flushed the toilet.
only I realized ;
I can't do this.

so basically my tummy are always filled with food nowadays.
and I can see the changes in myself-
which is turning plump.
compare my pictures from last year with the latest I have.
FAT.

maybe I should just take diet pills -
or drink dettol.
or even take drugs.

how can I make myself feel better?
I hate being oversize.
I hate being mistreated.




I'm going to gym on April...,
by the way.
it's time to do something for myself.

I would like to emphasis something ;
I'm not depressed.




kbye.